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Simple Math

Don’t go. Go.
Touch me. Don’t touch me.
Simple math
says it doesn’t make sense
to keep adding
and subtracting
the same things
if what I want
is to change
the way we live
the way you love me—
and by now
you must be so confused
when I walk away
for a crime so small
it would be funny
to those couples
who already know
that commitment
is the key to longevity—
but your love is risk averse
rationed
measured out
as if to give me more
would divide you
diminish you
reduce you to half
of a whole—
so what can I do
but go back to my own house
and quietly close
all the doors I left
standing wide open
for you.

 

 

 

DeMaris
10-10-18

“Bedroom” by Vilhelm Hammershoi, 1890

Standoff

He is out there somewhere
clinching his fists—
the man you ran away from,
the man who loves you anyway,
who brought you bleeding hearts
and lilacs and daffodils
and cayenne pepper chocolate bars—
the man who wrote your name
in the sand and on his heart
and would drive three hours
to see you for just one.
He is out there somewhere
wringing his hands
wondering where you are—
and why you still write poems
about how sad it is to live without love,
when his promise to you hangs in the air
like a thick morning fog
concealing a meadow full of sunflowers—
and all you need to do is walk toward him
and everything will become clear
and he will erase your doubts
with his trembling hands
but you are the skeptic
who believes that if you get too close
he will run away too.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

DeMaris
8-4-18

“Sweets to the Sweet” by Edmund Blair Leighton, 1893

No Right

A man
and a woman
have no right
to fall
to feel
to fantasize
about each other
or about a life
outside
their bedroom
even if the bed
they go home to
is empty
or on the floor
or otherwise
unoccupied
by heat
as long as
this man
and this woman
have somehow
committed
the most
Intimate
part
of themselves
to an incompatible
other
in the form
of a promise
that no one
wants to
keep.

 

 

 

DeMaris
11-10-17